Dear family and friends,
I owe you an apology.
More than four years ago, I took a sharp sudden turn in faith and practice. I was a respected seminary trained pastor occupying a pulpit in your community. As such, I was a trusted shepherd. I began asking some hard questions of Scripture and of the church fathers. Our Father, by His Holy Spirit, began to answer and His answers were exciting and scary all at the same time.
As I learned, I began to share with great zeal those things I was seeing in Scripture, truths that ran contrary to things I had learned in church and in seminary. My tone was often shrill and unloving. Certainly, I did not exhibit the compassion I should have. I am sorry.
At times I was quite angry at the rejection I received by those who I thought should know better, not considering that they only responded as I would have if I had been blindsided by a respected leader taking a sharp turn on the faith journey. Please forgive me.
Just as I felt rejected, I rejected and pushed away many who love me, even if they did not/do not understand that which I was learning. I am sorry. Please forgive me.
I was wrong to assume you wanted to know what I was learning, and wrong to gripe publicly about your rejection. Please forgive me.
To be clear, I have not changed or recanted anything I have learned. On the contrary, I am more convinced today than ever of the veracity and immediate applicability of the whole council of God’s Word. What I am learning is that I cannot expect the Holy Spirit to perform the same work at the same speed in all hearts. Further, this is His work and while I may be a tool in His hands, I am not free to run ahead of Him.
Please accept my apology if I have offended you in any way. I am sorry. It was not my intent.
Where you have hurt me and my family, I forgive you. As with us, there was no ill will or intentional offense behind your actions. We harbor no ill will toward anyone and only wish to share our excitement about what Scripture says and how we are called to live.
If there are specific grievances I need to address, please contact me via email or phone. If you would like to have a non-confrontational conversation about what and why I believe as I do, I am happy to, but it will be at your invitation.
I bless you and pray our Father lead us all into HIS fullness of truth,
Pete, Kelly and the boys.